Keep Trust in Him

Saatku tak melihat jalanMu
Saatku tak mengerti rencanaMu
Namun tetap kupegang janjiMu
Pengharapanku hanya padaMu

Hatiku percaya
Slalu kupercaya!

Yes, one thing I got tonight is to keep trusting in Him, in every condition, sometimes its too hard for me to understand what happening with me. In additional, sometimes I feels like "oh, how stupid I am or God is leave me" but in fact, I know that He never leave me alone. Maybe, many things which happen was made me freaking out and think "just KILL ME!" Hey, there's so much things to do outside. My life is not just about me! Many things hurt me, many things changed me, and so many things I keep just in my mind, I'm not a person who likes to tell anything to others, cause I don't want to disturb them (I think). However, I can tell everything to Him, and I don't know how, but I always feel peace everytime I surrender to Him. He's awesome.

Today, what a sad day! Cried like a 'galau' young girl and just think that I wanna move from this county, I failed, I'm a loser. Should I change my life to be a nerdy girl? Or unsocial person? OH MY GOD, GEORGINA, ARISE!
Back to remember the promises of God. I'm more than a winner, I can do anything in Him who give the strength! I'm healed, I can, and for sure God is always be with me. Therefore, rise up!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When the lecturer said that my name is one of the most bad score in first quiz of statistic, I'm down!
When I know that my mom was arrived home earlier and she was sick, I'm drop.
When I saw Russell break my new shoes, I'm so angry, I punch him, I catch him until his scared to me, I'm super angry until I lost control even with my self. I'm fallen, and I'm cried. I felt totally FAILED.

However, now is whatever. I don't want to lose from the intimidation. Forgive me Lord, and here I am with a new hope, new spirit and I will let the world know that I can do the statistic! My mom will be heal ASAP! Especially, I have a super best friend, I buy him, I take care of him and I love him. I will not leave him, just because he made a mistaken, he still my best! Best of the best! Russell, my baby my love <3 also my true frined, since now! :')